Guys

(Disclaimer: This post is not meant to bash anyone or anything. If anything you find hurtful please accept my utmost sincere apologies)

As the title suggested, this post is about well, guys.

Not that I have lots of experience or anything.

In fact I've only had two short relationships during my secondary school days. And got dumped twice. (Not that it's anything to be proud of, just so you know)

So before you go on and judge me, I'm actually kinda pathetic in this area.

As in L.O.S.E.R pathetic.

I have friends around me who have stable boyfriends for years.

And I really wonder how they actually maintain it. And why can't I?

Then there's also relationships that go on forever and boom ended suddenly.

What's the problem actually?

To me, guys are something that's hard to understand

You never know what's going on in their little minds.

They're like faulty traffic lights, giving off mixed signals.

Green lights and red lights all mixed up,

One day they're all for you,

and the next day you'd see a different person.

At least most of the guys I met were like this. 

I don't mean all. 

I mean seriously? What the hell was all that shizz for if you didn't mean it?

Why say I love you when you don't?

Why start the relationships when you're not sure.

Why even come and give people the impression that you actually care?

Love is a BIG word.

You don't love EVERYONE.

Responsibility comes with love

when you love someone you're responsible for that someone.

And not hey, I love you

Then the next day, Um, maybe I don't love you anymore.

You'd never know what kind of impact your words will have on the girl.

Every word, every punctuation could affect us.

SO, the next time you 'love' someone please think.

The world would be a much better place if you'll just think.

You could save everyone from hurt.

So, I thank you :)

I don't know what's the so for HAHA ( I meant the title)

So, yeah as you can see I'm back in like days,

I normally don't do that right?

School started and I wasn't that busy mostly because we still don't have textbooks for this term

So I still kind of free.

Well, I came back mostly because I'm emo.

I mean that's what blogs are for right?

Anything happens, tell blog first.

SO, as my title has told you, I wanted to say thankyou.

This was supposed to be in my new year's eve post

but I guessed I got carried away. HAHA

So, now back to the topic 

(I'm using a lot of so's today -.-)

SO I THANK YOU

I bet most of us are like me.

We are never happy with life.

It's the truth.

Ungrateful brats.

You know, when pastors and elders in the church tells me

" Hey, God has a perfect plan for you. You are predestined cause God loves you and your life is perfect because God plans it"

'"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"' Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

But you know it's really hard to believe when you have issues in life.

As much as I love God, I used to wonder why has God put so many troubles in my life?

And sometimes it's like nobody really knows me except myself.

It's like a one man's war on earth.

But I thank God for letting me understand now.

I think God has put people to hurt me in my life to let me know how painful it is to be hurt.

How hurtful it is to be rejected.

How some comments are so mean that it hurts inside out.

SO THAT I REMEMBER THE PAIN AND NOT INFLICT IT ON ANYONE ELSE.

So thank you for people who has hurt me.

Because it has made me into a better person.

I know how painful it is so I try my best not to hurt others.

Thank God also for putting assholes in my life.

And God really has the perfect plan for me.

So when people hurt you next time, 

Say thank you for making me a better person.

And thank you for making me see the true colours so I won't continue to live in your lies.